I am almost 8 months into seperation. Was blind sided with "I want a seperation", which I didn't want, but I have been taking the required steps to put my life back together. We have 2 adult children together, who live with me.

I have read this forum a lot and have taken the wonderful advice offered by its members. I am taking care of myself, I run, cycle, swim and have read No More Mr Nice Guy and just ordered The Rationale Male. I have also recently started a much better job than the one I was at.

The seperation process has been fairly amicable and I was at a point where I could see the STBXW when needed with no real emotion felt. However I do have my bad days still, and battle a bit of anxiety and depression and I am seeing a therapist for this.

I haven't really dreamed about her in this time at all, but last night, I did. It was the most vivid dream that we had reconciled and were back together which I was ecstatic about in the dream. I woke up soon after and it has really thrown me, this morning I find myself hoping for a chance of reconciliation.

Just when you think you have your shit together, it seems that you don't. I know this will pass but I just needed to share. Thanks for listening.