So watching some stupid ass TV (Love is Blind) I honestly didn’t plan on getting into. It’s kinda fascinating watching it from my current perspective, I just want to scream at some of these dudes “fucking run!”

On another note, my son recently came out as gay, he’s 15. At first I had some reservations about it but was loving and caring to him. Minus any religious beliefs I might have, I wish I could be attracted to dudes lol, his life is going to be easier for it.

Still despite all of this bullshit I’ve been through, I am struggling to not want to rescue her from herself. Don’t get me wrong I’m not trying to in any way, but I know she’s fucking her life up and I know she’s been happy with me before and I could make her happy again. But she doesn’t deserve me, she doesn’t deserve the man that I am. She has made my life miserable the past 4-5 months and had torn me from my kids. Why do I want to fix this?