on paper she aint shit. She had BPD and gave me the basic manipulation of lovebombing, great sex, and then bail. She said she "loved" me and then moved in with another guy, and is prob doing the same shit with him.

Why do I want her so bad still? Why do I feel like I want closure? Why do I want her and only her attention? She sees me with a different hot chick almost every day. And gets jealous. But I actually hate her. What is the deal here?