Any tips for gaming with bpd? I take any sort of rejection extremely badly and if i dont get 100% enthusiasm from people i tend to ghost as a defense mechanism. I also have severe identity issues which makes small talk really hard for me. I got bullied in highschool for being "creepy" ( i was just a shy, desperate, lonely mfer trying to date lmao) and ive been afraid of girls ever since. Im great at making first impressions but everything seems to fall apart if im the one responsible for carrying the convo. Idk if gaming should be a priority rn but im horny as fuck and idk what to do.

Ive had girls approach me in the past but i always denied them cause theyve always been looking for a relationship. A part of me wanted to do some fuck boy shit and lie to them to get some pussy but i didnt want to ruin my rep ( i think being bullied made me overly self conscious about what people think of me). Im hella clingy and needy anyways and idk if i could even maintain a relationship even if i wanted to.

As a side note: i have severe mental issues when it comes to my self esteem and self concept and i used to be a "nice guy" incel up until the past few months. Ik i should be focusing on inner game first and stuff but my fucking boners hurt at night lmao. Ive read "models" and "the game" and im trying to work and being more extroverted, passing shit tests, and being vulnerable but all these things are extremely hard for me with my mental illness. Ik this is a niche topic as not many dudes have bpd but any tips are much appreciated.