19 turning 20. Been in an LTR for nearing 2 years. She's v pretty but I think I could do better. Have the opportunity to travel to Canada with friends for 3 months this Summer and live with them and work there. Sounds like a blast. However, doing so would probably nuke my relationship. I stupidly told my gf about the idea and now she's trying to influence me to stay and the decision is not as mine as it once were.

I don't want to hurt her and I do love her but I know she is not the one for me. We're very different. The relationship is quite toxic too I just don't want to hurt her cos she's good to me. We've had problems with flirting before and on occasion short break ups. It's not about sex this question, like maintaining her as a plate. This is a LTR and demoting her would be of no benefit to me or her cos I don't want her to be hurt like that. Not sure what to do. I can always go next summer but it'd be a bummer to miss out on a great experience and it will also force me to end the relationship that I've been thinking about ending for some time. Also I really wanna experience other girls. She doesn't want to go with me cos she knows I don't want her to and it's only lads going. Stuck. Not sure how to let her down if I do decide to go or if I should go at all.