hello again.

I dated for the first time, things were going alright but I guess she got bored or found someone else. She stopped replying, didn't have time for dates yk the usual.

it started seeming like, I was the desperate one because I would suggest hanging out and she'd say she has to work, or she's with a family.

I got tired of that shit, I ended thing with her. Told her that it was great while it lasted. She's moving to different state in a couple of months so it probably wasn't the right time to continue this "situationship".

Basically it was bothering me that she could just not care about all the dates we've been on and things we talked about and just stop hanging out with me so I texted her. I'm not the type of a person to ghost people because I don't respect those ghost others.

But the thing is I can't stop thinking about what could have been? What if I had done these things in certain way, treated her in certain way, escalated sexually instead of getting scared. It seems like a done deal if only I had escalated sexually. but I guess it is what it is. Any advices on how to stop thinking about what could have been?

I still use tinder but no luck on matches. I was thinking I could distract myself by talking to other girls but no luck. I guess I should do my work(chores and assignments) to distract myself. please let me know if you have better way of coping.