I've made it my personal goal to get somewhat competent at the game during my time in Krakow. Bars and clubs are plenty and the women in the clubs are pretty much unlimited. I've read a lot, but when it comes to actually doing it - still very much a keyboard jockey. I'm getting better at actually going out and sarging, sort of. Lately I've been watching the Annihilation DVD's which are absolutely inspiring and mindblowing how polished Style is. I like his style (no pun), and I like the framework he lays out - I'm definitely a framework orientated guy.

So I decided to go out clubbing today with some friends. Problem is, I didn't even cold approach anybody even though I've studied the openers and such. I know I enough courage/confidence to do it, but I'm still holding back for some reason. That and my energy level is way too god damn low for the bars. I'm not usually the type that goes out at like 12am, and stays out until 5am ish. I'm not completely psyched about going out and meeting people. Fuck, I seriously need some help in this department. The club was JAMMED pack and overwhelming and completely took me out of my element. It was a fruitless night at the club.

My friends decided to bounce and head somewhere else. We ended up going to a bar and lounging around. There is this particular friend that I'm vaguely interested in. Lets call her Jackie. She's seriously a cool chick who's attractive, physically and the mix of her character. I've had oneitis far too often, and been LBJF'ed far too many fucking times. I'm taking extra care NOT to be good friends with her, even though it's kinda unfolding in that direction. Other than a few chit chats at some gatherings, a casual coffee date... I would say I still don't really know her that well or make a real effort to hangout. I somewhat feel safe that I'm not in the friend zone right now. For the majority of the night, I talked with my other friends and largely ignored her. Then the friends (girls) that I was talking to decided to take off because they were too tired, and I ended up talking to Jackie and other friends. In less than 5 minutes, all my other friends decided to hit up another bar. I was seriously on low energy at this time. But she seemed eager to chat. I found myself naturally isolated with her now.

She had some problems on her mind, and being the rAFC that I still very much am, decided to listen to it. I asked what's wrong and told her to open up, and it was about a one night stand with a guy who wasn't responding to her (she just saw him at the previous club) and she was like why she always ends up being with guys like that. At this point in time, my mind was flashing "DANGER, DANGER. GTFO here and steer the convo to something else!!!!". So I used this opportunity to suggest that maybe I could suggest some hints on why she attracts crazies like that and practiced The Cube which I'm still trying to get a hang of.

She hung onto every word and was floored by the analysis of the cube. I was a little surprised at what her cube was as well. I think she was the most shocked at her horse which was big, strong, hanging out and constantly biting at stuff. I interpreted that one as she wanted a forward confident man who is unafraid to go out and get what he wants but at the same time is able to chill out as well. I suggested so far she's only been able to attract the crazies, without the calmness to them.

She was super into it and definitely built some rapport like that. I just learned Style's EV so I ran a really shitty version on it which kinda was okay. It was my first time doing it. After that, we chatted a bit more and then it just ended up being to late, and she had stuff to do so we split ways. Throughout the interaction, I did my absolutely best to main the most eye contact as possible, listening. I tried to kino as much as I could. I purposely made many vacuums in the conversation so she'd have to work a little more. But after those two routines, I had no idea how to really escalate. It was unfamiliar territory, I am soooooooo unexperienced.

At the end of the night we just hugged and parted ways. She thanked me for the cube as it was really cool to her and made her kinda think a lot more about herself. I said something AFC as hell along the lines of "Glad to hear it made your night more special". Fuck. Whatever. I really should of tried out the whole point to cheek and say "Kiss goodbye" thing. Next time.

We seem to have a connection but I am beginning to think it's getting platonic, but I still don't feel very assertive or alpha. In fact, it just felt like I was that friend that had some cool games/routines. I feel that I let her talk about guys in her life way too much in the interaction. And honestly - her sexuality, her sexual experience, her openness about sex intimidates the shit out of me. Seriously. 24 year old virgin trying to run game just isn't in the same league. The most sexual thing aside from masturbating is a lap dance, and some dirty dancing/grinding action at the clubs sometimes. I'm frustrated at my lack of experience to converse at the same level as her and the my lack of general alphaness. One thing I am good at is deep insightful rapport building conversations. Cockyfunny - only when I'm in the right state of mind and seriously consciously making remarks. I need to let loose a bit more.

I know that in order to win a girl over, you must be okay and risk losing her. I'm not attached yet. But I would like to see if I can turn it around somehow. I definitely feel like I'm slowly treading into the friendzone though. That is why I'm the Bludering_Rafc. My inner game definitely needs to be patched up alongside of self-worth. I hate this hesitation, helpnessness I feel when it comes to seduction. I see plenty of other sloppy put together men just getting success. I want a taste of that.

Over and out.