So ill admit that im not satisfied with my success with the opposite sex.

Ever since I could remember, women confused the shit out of me. Like in 3rd grade, a girl that just moved here came to my school and being the horny little fucker that I am, I tried to get with her. Now, this was my first crush ever. By ever, I mean EVER. It was the first time I even noticed a girl like that. Now, I was completely and utterly stumped on what to do with these feelings. I googled day in and day out what to do to "get a girl you like to like you back". I was fucking determined. So, I played the nice guy act. Typical AFC stuff. I wore clothes that she liked, bought her a necklace, complimented her every day. Did I get any where? No. Elementary school was super frustrating, I was so nice to this girl, why wouldn't she want to give me a chance? Throughout Junior High I put up this act. Didn't even get one kiss, nothing. I was clueless about how women operated. Was I just not graced with the good looks or charisma like others to even get a girlfriend? Finally, at the beginning of high school, I found out about the community. I read....then I read some more. Hours and hours of researching went on. Then, once I finished my reading, I was a Master Pick Up Artist........I wish.

Many guys are frustrated with women, and believe me, I was more frustrated then a horny gay guy at a tittie bar. I know im a cool person. Im capable of of being a good boyfriend, so why cant I get a girlfriend to save my life?

I reached the lowest part in my life recently. Socially, I became a retard. After reading about seduction, I over-analyzed stuff more then I ever did. I became a introspective little freak, which really did not help me out for my cause. Now that I think about it, I always thought that I needed to "better myself" before trying to pursue women, which You should, but I did it to a point where I was too stuck inside of my own head.

Do not ever get inside of you head for too long. Just stop that. Do it to reflect on a certain situation and get the fuck out. It crippled me when I tried to do anything. Shit, it became such a bad habit that I still do it to this day unknowingly. Think of your mind as a flashlight. Where ever you point that flashlight is what you are focusing on. Really think about what you are pointing that damn thing. The mind works kind of in a opposite manner. Lets say when talking to a girl, you put all of your focus on not saying the wrong thing. This, even though you may think will be beneficial, will make the situation worse. But that's a whole different topic and im not here to discuss that.

I guess ill just cut to the chase since in the time I went to make some ramen noodles, I lost my train of thought.

I realized that I needed to really, honestly evaluate myself. That means pen and paper, really go deep into myself (no pun intended). I listed all the things I was happy with in my life, and things that I wasn't happy with. I went into detail on exactly why I went into this community and what I want to achieve from learning all of this. I took all the everyday struggles i've been dealing with, and brainstormed how to solve them. Just a bunch of self questions that help put everything back into perspective.

But the biggest thing that dawned on me, and the real reason I wrote this post. It may seem obvious, but if you want something, you have to just drop everything, and go out and do it. No fucking excuses. You don't want to move backwards or sideways, you want to move forward. Im sure you've heard it a billion times by now. Picking up women in the end is just a numbers game. Not one girl is worth your time and effort if she doesn't mirror the same feelings. Try to get her, and if it doesn't work out, forget it. It was a learning experience that can help you with the next one. Oneitis is counter productive. Just go fucking do it you pussy. If you really have a passion for something, like music or pick up, go do something about it. Sitting around doing nothing will not accomplish anything. You pretty much just have to not give a fuck about what women think about you. Your opinion about yourself is the only one that counts. Do things to entertain yourself, and not others. (to a point, just don't go around pissing people off, but if you feel a sudden urge to dance in the grocery store, who will stop you and how many fucks will you give?) This is your life, not anyone else's. Its all been said before, but you really need to believe it yourself. If a girl thinks your creepy, fuck it, you no you are not so screw her. Insults should just vanish. They dont help you progress foward in life, or pick up, so disregard them. Its time to see that no matter what a girl tells you, its still your opinion in the end and a single girl doesnt have the power to change that, does she? If she does, you are giving her too much value. Think on it.

TL;DR: You must make sure that your focus is on something that will benefit you in the end. Doing that, and making sure that you stop giving yourself excuses and just go do whatever is that you want to do will make you more satisfied in life. Do everything for you, and you only.