I've gone through RSD's the blueprint about twice. I go out almost every night, and i do my best to talk to women everywhere. But success feels like it's still outside of my grasp.

I recently discovered that I have an addiction to masturbation, pornography and orgasms, and it has developed in me a neediness for them. Up until I found r/nofap I would masturbate at least once a day.

This effects me a lot, where ill be in a bar/club or anywhere with women, and if I'm really horny, and I can't get sex off my mind, then I can't relax and I end up getting no where. On the few times I am centered, I get laid or at least somewhere with an interaction.

Lately what's been happening is that ill attract a girl, sleep with her, and end up scaring her away through my neediness or by being tryinghard.

I'm finding that I also still invest too much too easily into women who don't deserve it.

I'm so naive still, that I forget that looks really are such a little factor in compatibility. When I see a pretty girl, even though I go through the moves of qualifying her and stuff, in my head I've already accepted that she's worthy and get excited about where our future could go.

Also when I think I have a source of sex, I get into this mindset where I forget everything I've learned and just try to hold on to this source for as long as I can. And this turns into neediness, where I start to get emotional about the girl and fear of loss until I drive her away. I used to think this was love.

I have serious issues with sex and attachment. I used to think sex was some special thing that 2 people did or that it meant that u 2 have strong feelings for each other. While the couple may "like" one another physically on the first night, I personally don't like having sex where it is so meaningless that you could easily walk away the next day and it wouldn't make a difference. This is a problem because I'm really easy and ready to fuck all the time. I find sex to be very intimate, and while I am a slut, it's only because I'm easy to please and have a big heart for everyone.

I also still have difficulty reading people's subtle cues, or taking right action when it's more than obvious.

I still make excuses for not approaching beautiful women, because I don't feel like I have enough value that they would actually pick me out of the thousands of other men who approach them because I have nothing that stands out about m enough to convince me. Although the more I go out and approach them, the easier it is getting.

I also still don't fully grasp the reality of pretty women, and still feel like when I approach them, that its like a Boss level in a video game and there are no checkpoints, ur just fucked. I still have limiting beliefs (i dont fully believe im worth it for the hot chicks), and I don't live in the moment when out with friends.

I think one of my biggest issues is definitely the fact that I put so much emphasis of my life and my mind on sex, constantly. Maybe because i don't get it enough, or I'm lonely, or that I'm just addicted to it.

I feel like I'm a bit stuck here. My reality is not strong, and even though Im a lot better than ever before, and I understand a lot of principles, I don't fully believe in myself, and have a hard time internalizing them. I still have feelings of insecurity or not being sure in myself that I'm cool and everything is fine.

A friend of mine recommended therapy is something I should do also. She told me that I have problems with listening to not just the words, but what's under the words. I still have bad ego bruising when things don't go my way, when things do go my way, and I just feel like I can't be a regular fucking human being.

Does anyone have advice for me? I feel so lost.

TLDR: I'm drowning in a sea of limiting beliefs and issues. I just don't know how to escape them all to be successful. Help?