I hooked with a girl and have been pursuing her ever since. We met through okcupid and met up for a drink, had a great time and ended the night at a hotel fucking. She is definitely my type, a petite little thing with a nice rack and cute face, oh and the kicker... Russian bisexual. After two weeks of fucking like rabbits I realized it was more than just fun and games, and she reciprocated the same. At first I was real laid back, didn't think to much of her and in control of myself, my emotions and leading the relationship. Here I am a month later, and have lost complete control over my emotions for her. She is always on my mind. After we fuck, everything i'm feeling just spills out of me. Good, bad, stuff I should be telling a therapist. She in turn comforts me and shares some of her own thoughts. I feel like i'm obsessing over her. We aren't dating, and I am leaning on the side of not, there have been ALOT of red flags that she'd need to work on, but I'm so out of control with my emotions I don't think i'll resist it from happening. I'm losing my alphaness(If I ever had it), I have reverted to my old ways of the disney love story. She is definitely starting to take control and putting a leash on me, likewise in control of the sex. My question is, how do I get out of this mindset of thinking and stop sucking down the blue pill? Not to salvage it with her, but for me to have the courage to next her and not make this mistake again. Any constructive advice is welcomed!