I had this weird experience last year around the same time where for some reason a lot of girls started showing interest from afar. I didn't do anything, not even work out. No idea why that happened, but a coworker showed the same level of interest (actually? Too far. I could hear her thoughts! That's how strong it was. I could hear her saying my name from afar when she didn't even say anything. She was looking at me all day). She sits one seat next to me, and after she came back she became even more attractive. At this time I have no clue what to do, and I changed my persona to fit in because I wanted that connection, that feeling again. I couldn't get it, and she push pulled me in a way. And I caught feelings for her. It's been an year and I can't stop thinking about this regret and what could have been.

The story gets even worse- a coworker who is a party type came along. This guy has a gf and is comfortable with women, even sexually escalating and aski g about their relationship status etc. These two got along, and the dude even went clubbing with her. The days they talked with each other were absolute hell. I died inside everyday, and I couldn't cry for help. That day I decided to change something, so I started working out and approached few of the better looking women in my office.

Both of them fell for me(I'm a bit good looking) and there my lack of social skills killed me. I made weird jokes, PJs and what not which made them go away. I was going through what people call the 'Dancing Monkey Syndrome'. I had their number but didn't know what to do with it. Another coworker got the number of one of them, and they started talking. They EVEN went out to hang out and despite of me asking Ber out and her rejecting me despite being interested (yes she was interested, with the Bambi eyes and everything) and to be fair I pushed too hard for the ask out because I wanted to prove a point to my coworker that I can have any woman I want-I screwed up. I'm trying to crawl back ever since. I pushed too hard with the other girl whom I made.uncomfortable and now we don't.even meet eyes. It sucks to know what might have been if only.

I don't know what that coworker did right and what I did wrong, despite of there being an initial attraction I screw everything up. People.are just not.comfortable with me hanging out with them, I do everything right and fail.

And these memories pop up everyday while I'm doing.something important. Holy fuck and it makes me feel so insecure all of a sudden, I have to watch a few seduction videos and articles just to feel better but I can't go on like this.

Everyday it pops up, everyday my mind comes up with plans to impress them or show them what they're missing. I can't work, can't sleep, can't do shit. PLEASE help a fellow sedditor out! This isn't your regular oneitis.