Hope you have the patience to read it all, it would mean a lot to me.

3 months ago I broke up with my cheating GF after giving her a second chance that I should never have done. All of January I was really pissed and beaten down but I focused my mind on moving forward even though I still had and have the feelz for her.

I joined a gym, started weight lifting and bought a guitar, something I wanted to do for a long time. I focused again on finishing my education, bought a new car and started a new job.

We study at the same uni so lately we come across one another and when we do I tend to have a smirk on my face, look straight at her but say nothing and so does she. When we cross paths and she is with some girl friends of hers (that I happen to know) they always try to get my attention and say hallo just so I notice my Ex.

She used to post pre-made phrases in public on facebook and even tag people I know so it would show on my timeline. I'm a very resourceful and outgoing person so I always knew what she was up to. I knew that she was with the other guy right after we broke up but that she isn't RIGHT now.

Yesterday I went for a coffee with a girl that happen to be a friend of my Ex. She invited me and I accepted because I was curious about my Ex, not gonna lie. After some talk she mentioned that my Ex misses my friendship that it's totally weired that we cross paths and don't talk.

I have been going out but still haven't had a plate. I'm more of a relationship kind of guy and I'm having a hard time getting back on track, I feel down, somewhat worth less (not worthless) then before because I was cheated on by a girl that I was willing to share my future with and that made me very defensive, self conscious and less of a risk taker.

This is me letting it all out to better process it. It's hard for me to cross path with her, having dated her for more then 2 years and now not even sharing a smile or even a conversation with her. I would love to hear from her that she regrets everything, thus boosting my ego and giving me at least some piece of mind. I still don't know to this day who she cheated on me with and that makes me self-conscious too, it would be so much better for me if I knew.