Background: divorced dad for about 2yrs. Ex- is a liar and a cheater. Together for 20yrs and 10yr married, three little ones to coparent. In the last 10yrs beyond the brutal betrayal of my ex- I endured the loss of my brother and then only a few years later of my Dad. The betrayal, divorce and destruction of the family is what I’d say the nail in the coffin of my mental health. My ex- endured alongside me all my pain. Yet she considered that after all the pain I had gone through she still betrayed me and her kids. That being said I have tried to remember multiple times of the moment my kids were born. The small details that one savors when they are born, more over I have tried to remember about myself 20yrs ago and I can’t remember anything. Many of the details are gone or lost. I was told this is temporary and due to trauma I endured, it’s a way the mind and body tries to protect us. It’s been two years since my last brutal trauma and I am getting rather concerned about this. I was rather proud of being able to recount many determining and not so determining aspects of my life. My friends would even say.. hey man how do you remember everything or that person etc .. I think I may have lost that capacity. Has this happened to any of you?