I’m not even small, just average, like 6” (NBP) x 4.7”. But if you’re not big, you’re small. And my real problem is girth, which is what matters apparently. I have a fucking needle dick. No matter who I date, at some point, she will have been fucked by some big dick alpha male type guy. No matter what kind of sex I have, it will never be as enjoyable for me as it is for someone with a big dick. I would do literally anything to have a big dick. Literally anything. I’m completely uninterested in sex. I used to have so much ambition, now I have none. If I can’t compete with dick size, why try to compete in any other way? No matter what I do, the hung guys won. They fucked my girl. They got to feel like more of a man than me. She probably praised them for their size. I would literally kill to have one girl tell me “wow you’re so big” and actually mean it. The fact that any girl I date has given a hung guy that ultimate honor, that ultimate joy and respect that I will NEVER get. If she’s given that to another man, or god forbid, multiple men, then what the FUCK is the point in dating? What kind of respect or admiration can she give me that even comes CLOSE to that? It’s beyond unfair. My life has no meaning, only intense emasculation, pain, and pure rage. There is no point. All my life this has crushed me. I hate women. I hate hung men. If I hear that someone has a big dick, I literally go out of my way to make their life harder. I feel pure joy when I hear that something horrible is happening in their life. Sex is pointless for me because of all of this. Life is entirely pointless. Any romantic love I’ve ever had has involved literally constant rage and agony. This is not hyperbole. Therapy doesn’t help because it doesn’t make my dick bigger. Meds don’t help because they don’t make my dick bigger. Nothing helps. Nothing. Any girl I love is not mine, because she gave some guy the greatest joy and admiration possible. I’m just another lesser man. And no one has any sympathy. No one understands. This has run my life from a very early age. If there is a god, I would do anything just to spit in his face. What kind of god would put pure, ultimate pain and humiliation between someone and love. Every hour of every day, I feel like I’m watching my girlfriend get fucked in front of me. I feel like I’m being completely dominated every second of every day. The thing I love most in the world is constantly being ripped away from me in the most disrespectful way possible. I am constantly feeling the deepest betrayal possible. There is no love left in me. No accomplishment in my life has ever come near to even a tenth of this fucking agony. I have absolutely lost all meaning in life. There is no point. I pray every night that I will die in my sleep. If nuclear war broke out, I would cry happy tears and kiss the ground. There is no deeper humiliation and disrespect. I have no dignity left. I stay alive only because of fear of hell. This pain is greater than my love for my parents even, so they’re not even the thing stopping me anymore. Nothing compares. Nothing redeems life to me. It hasn’t gotten any easier over the years. My life’s purpose now is to make others’ lives worse. No one understands? No one wants to make any efforts to ultimately fix this? Fine. The rest of my hellhole torture life is dedicated to making people suffer for taking my love, joy, innocence, and dignity away so fucking disrespectfully.

Before the “size doesn’t matter” comments start showing up, it fucking matters and it fucking matters to me. Don’t fucking lie. If you dig deep enough, women say it matters. “Your size is fine.” FINE?????? FINE??????? OH GREAT, I LOVE BEING FUCKING “FINE”. “FINE” IS FUCKING NOTHING NOTHING NOTHING NOTHING NOTHING NOTHING NOTHING COMPARED TO OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOH SO FUCKING BIGGGGGGGGGGGG OH YOU’RE SUCH A MANNNNNNNN EVEN THOUGH YOU HAVEN’T DONE FUCKING ANYTHING TK EARN IT. WHY DO WOMEN TORTURE AND HUMILIATE US LIKE THIS???????? WHY DOES GOD HUMILIATE AND DESTROY US LIKE THIS??????? I CAN’T DO IT. I CAN’T DO IT. I FUCKING HATE WOMEN. I HATE WELL-HUNG MEN. I HOPE YOU ALL FUCKING DIE SLOWLY. I AM SO GODDAMN CLOSE. SO FUCKING CLOSE. THERE’S NO FUCKING ESCAPE. NO ONE CARES NO ONE NO ONE NO ONE NO ONE NO ONE NO ONE NO ONE. I’ve hit this with logic from every angle and nothing works. Life is just horrible, horrible, horrible, horrible, horrible, horrible, horrible, horrible, horrible. At this point, drugs seem like the only option outside of suicide.

If there’s a god he has to answer for this. Evil cocksucking subhuman sadistic dogfucking scumfuck devil of a god and women and well-hung men love his work. You’re all evil.

God fucking damn it someone just fucking fix this. I don’t deserve this, no one deserves this. I used to be a good person and this destroyed me. Please someone just put a fucking bullet in my head so I don’t have to do it. Please.