This is a dilemma I ran into a year and change ago, which would certainly explain where the H I've been.

tl;dr I grew up and now I'm more confused, not less.

I didn't think I'd ever be back here. I thought, I cut off my hair, I loved it short and sassy, I was in love with my female best friend. I was in a major anti-male rage phase. After the man I was with decided to find himself, I thought, I'm done with guys for a long time.

My friend got a boyfriend. I started styling my short hair in a vintage, feminine way. The bi-cycle turned from women to men. I blogged out the rage. I'm done with the rage. I'm sick of the gender wars.

The man who was finding himself has figured himself out. So have I. And not only am I lonely for him... I'm kind of over being the person I was when I was on here in 2023. I hid behind my morality and self-righteousness, but I am no better than any other sinner. I am worse. I was a hypocrite. I am a hypocrite.

We're talking on Messenger again. But I know I need to go above and beyond if I want him to see me as a woman again and not just a friend that used to want to date him.

How in the world do I do that?