I feel like I've been bottling up my stress and it's just all come crashing out. Grief has made me realize that this is not what I want out of life. I'm becoming regretful and resentful. I've lost who I am and just feel like vanishing. I have two great kids but I've allowed myself to become isolated with a partner that is codependent and hasn't dealt with trauma caused by her family. Intimacy has been dead for 4 years and I don't feel secure sharing my struggles because it throws off the "routine" and makes them shutdown. We are both exhausted and distant. I have started therapy and she seems reluctant to do so. I just hate the idea of splitting up my family to save my peace of mind. But lately I've felt so much peace being by myself when I work from home. I can't stop crying about this feeling in my gut. I feel like a failure , like I should have spoke up more, like I'm giving up. I just know I don't feel fulfilled and that this is not sustainable long term and that if I leave it will make me look bad and devastate my partner....