So I have posted before and mostly because where I live I don’t have family or friends who understand the emotions I’m feeling.

Currently in a separation likely headed to divorce. Her infidelity started this along with the past 4 months of roller coaster back and forth until I found the truth. We live together for one more week.

And the hardest part is the emotions I feel everyday and trauma and grieving when I see her. What we once were.

Anyway, it’s New Year’s Eve. I have zero plans because again no friends or family and that’s okay. But what I guess I didn’t expect (or maybe I should have) is that she has plans. She is staying out all day and night and said she will be back tomorrow. Who knows who’s she’s seeing or going.

And I shouldn’t care. Shouldn’t be bothered. But man that’s easy to say right?