Just needing a few words of encouragement.

For no apparent reason (I think...) I've been spiraling a bit over the past week. I actually like to think I was doing ok or at least not too bad. But since end of last week more or less out of nowhere I've been having way too many bad thoughts, therapists are still not available, friends somehow are unable to just listen, everything is looking bleak again, daily crying fits... I think most people here can relate.

Now I really feel as if my life is over. As if I'm doomed to sit in a waiting room, not knowing if they've simply forgotten me or when it's going to be my turn. No magazines, no music, no pictures - just an empty room, waiting (if this makes sense).

This feels so awful and I really would like my ex to suffer.