35 years old & I have almost everything, but also almost nothing. Let me explain and then hopefully I can get some advice other than "you're a beta faggot".

Been with wife since 19. I was her first. We've never been separated. We moved in together, i started a successful internet business working from home which meant we spent almost all of our time together. Mid-20s we got married, then had 3 kids. Generally happy.

I was a beta muppet for pretty much all my 20s, but I didn't realise this until I discovered MRP a few months ago.

I got bored of working from home, went into employment for a larger company a year ago, not for the money - for the interaction with other people.

I'm getting more attention than ever before and at my job I'm now seen as the 'leader' as such. Women there are doing me favours left right and centre, making tea, buying me gifts etc - behaviour that I can now recognise, now that I'm familiar with red pill teachings.

One particular coworker is smoking hot and I mean smoking. 10 yrs younger & jaws drop when she walks down the street. She gave me fuck me eyes from day 1, she's in an LTR (8 yr) but it hasn't stopped her meeting for coffee etc dozens of times, buying me gifts etc - in short we're seriously into each other. I could have her if I wanted but she'd be leaving her BF, not cheating I don't think - although you could argue shes already crossed a line.

There's just the matter of my wife and children who I love dearly but I have felt this itch for a few years, maybe because I've been with the same girl for so long.

Red pill alphas are supposed to know what to do in these situations but my head is a mess. Which proves I have a long way to go.

I'm on the verge of throwing it all in, and for what? I realise this but when I think of things staying as they are I don't feel happy