Can someone help me interpret these quotes? TIA

She was 23 & i was 29 when we got married (~20 yrs ago, arranged marriage*). We have 2 boys (11 & 13) that are growing up well. My career is off-road (freelance IT guy, unsteady income but lots of flexibility). She is a physician (also center medical director) who truly loves her job and does not even know how much money she makes. She defers all of the family & financial matters to me.

But i still sense a lack of respect. And sex is mostly starfish. i am a gym rat (BF 13%, BMI 24). Current SMV is on par with her.

edit 1: *Parents match social & financial status. Compatibility way down the list. Society is much different today.

2: She had a boyfriend in college but was still a virgin when we got married (i can attest). Her thinking back then was that she was afraid nobody better would come along (paraphrased).

3: Think the spark is gone and we live mostly like roommates.