Recently I️ cheated on my SO. She came to meet me where I️ was studying at a quiet sports pub, and some girls had joined me (not from my invitation, they just walked in and saw me). She went home (because I️ smoked a cigarette) and left me with the girls. I️ got really drunk and made out with one of them. Chaos ensued.

Background

I️ spent a good portion of my youth sleeping with beautiful women. I️ have never had problems attracting women, and would next them when things got tough, boring, or she demanded commitment.

That lifestyle wound up with an accidental pregnancy, and my daughter was born. She is amazing and I️ love her beyond what I️ thought love could be. I️ couldn’t spend my life attracting beautiful 20 somethings and nexting then. That’s not the type of modeling I️ want for her. So I️ decided to change my life...

I️ started looking for wife material and I️ started civilizing. I️ changed my life dramatically, going from a fuck boi to a man with ambition. Went from barely making rent to very close to becoming a tax lawyer. I️ believe I️ am liked and respected in my field due to my intelligence and aptitude. But am still learning to domesticate.

So what happened?

As I️ said, I️ cheated on her. The details are unimportant because they were my mistakes. For the curious, one of the girls was apparently attracted to me (as I’ve experienced before), and she bought me drinks I️ shouldn’t have drank, she offered a ride I️ shouldn’t have accepted, and used the room I️ allowed to kiss me whereby I️ returned to my instinctual escalation/attraction of my youth. Regardless, I️ don’t blame her for being attracted and moving on it, I️ blame myself for allowing it and dropping into old patterns while drunk. I️ regret it deeply.

So where to go from here?

All the arithmetic is screaming that she should leave me. She, however, is hesitating because this decision requires calculus, not arithmetic. I️ exert my agency on the world and am moving forward with AA in order to be more effective in achieving my vision. I️ would do this and will do this regardless of outcome and am not doing it for her. I️ have made all my life changes for myself and my offspring.

My GF is hesitating, I️ believe, because she has FOMO. I️ don’t blame her with my trajectory, obvious opportunity, personality and attractiveness. And humility. That too!

I’ve been domesticating well since my fuck boi days. I️ will be a tax lawyer very soon, where 5 years ago I was a thrilling scrub who had only mastered the alpha strategy. I️ am smart and ambitious, and achieving my professional and other goals. I️ have retained all the attractive benefits from my decade long training being “alpha”: I’m charming and funny (I️ can befriend and make anyone laugh), I️ am a bit mysterious, spontaneous, and dangerous (though I️ think she wishes my thoughts and plans were more transparent), and I️ fuck like a savage in ways that are exciting and thrilling. Finally, I️ am a ferocious protector of those I️ love, god help the person who harms any of my ladies. They are safe within the arms of my love (and this is what makes my cheating such an unforgivable betrayal).

If she leaves me, at some point it is very likely, though not certain, that I️ will be an RP ideal captain. Now, of course, I️ am not. AA will address a big weakness which is why that’s my next step regardless of how this shakes out.

So what are the options?

She is 30 right now, and so is torn between searching for a better captain NOW with what time she has, or sticking with someone who might be an amazing captain later (I️ think the chances are high, but I️ am also a confident man. Make your own assessment).

My options, of course, would be to mature and grow with the relationship and have the vision I️ desire with her, or if she decides to leave, fuck 20 somethings again (if I️ choose to), continue my mission to civilize while searching for new and younger wifey material. I️ love her and should she decide to stay on this train, I️ would welcome the decision. However it is her decision now, I️ would be sad to see her go, but my behavior and mission will not be impacted either way.

A lot of the advice she has gotten in this sub has been for her to leave. Perhaps that’s good advice, but it is myopic and fails to capture the unique conundrum that she’s in. Men mature rather late, especially the ones who are attractive enough be able to thrill girls and just fuck away their 20’s.

I️ am providing her space to make her decision to stay with me as I️ continue my ascent, or to return to the wilds in search of something else.

So RPW, my solid vision is a happy marriage for her and myself. Not a cat lady like some dork suggested! (Though I️ do like cats... sooooo... let’s not rule out me being a cat dude.) That said, her conundrum is which die she should toss. Gamble on a better future with me, or gamble with finding someone better with what time she has left.

So RPW, what should she do? I️ already know what I️ will do, but feel free to make suggestions if you really want to.

Should she get a lease, have some space and watch me solidify my goals (with the risk I️ will fail), or should she return to the wilds and hope to find a man who is better now?

Original thread she wrote: https://www.reddit.com/r/RedPillWives/comments/7akgwx/i_believe_i_need_to_let_go_but_i_dont_want_to/?st=J9U80TUR&sh=762d9f77https://www.reddit.com/r/RedPillWives/comments/7akgwx/i_believe_i_need_to_let_go_but_i_dont_want_to/?st=J9U80TUR&sh=762d9f77