New to this sub, but have recently become red pill aware through my husband who discovered MRP about a month ago. In realizing his change in behavior, I began looking into what this lifestyle is all about. I've taken time to start self-reflecting there's a few things I'm now struggling with while trying to adapt and save my marriage:

Hypergamy- it's TRUE and I've unknowingly subjected to this nature

The Wall- by the red pill man, as a 30 yr old woman I've hit it [however, I can't fully agree- after 7 yrs of marriage and 5 kids I always make it a point to "bounce back" if you will, look presentable because these self care things make me feel good inside]. Despite these things I can't shake the notion that my man may be buying into this next point

Spinning plates- my husband has inadvertently alluded to this expressing that as a wife all I bring to the plate is sex and the fact that I'm a great mother.

As a christian woman I've tried to understand his logic from a biblical standpoint i.e. a wife is to submit to her husband as the head of the household in reverence to God and that a wife is commanded to respect her husband as he is commanded to love her

Logically, when he waves his dick in my face I know I'm supposed to suck the dick but emotionally I just can't.

Since swallowing the pill it almost seems like he's jumped right down to around level 8 of dread and changed every password, split our phone lines, tried to move me to another room in our home [which was advice he received from MRP], comes and goes as he pleases usually going out 5-6 evenings out the week, instead of talking sends me texts about what I'm going to do, recently spent a few hours at a hotel, wont telm me who or where he's going, and six is all about him and his pleasure.

I'm angry and resentful. Is this how this is supposed to be or will it get better if I play my part? What is my part supposed to look like?