I get it, I have to change and be better. Sometimes I cannot shake the feeling that my chilhood, high-school years and University and also working etc have been a boring experience, very few parties, very few anecdotes, not much friends, not much crazyness, not many things to tell, first time sex well until past college. Etc.

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All this because of various circunstances (parenting, blue pill shit, shyness, not knowing how the world worked) I have improved greatly since high-school for example, but the fact that I deal with "normal" people everyday that always has something awesome to say about their past parties, getting drunk, girls, sex, trips, pictures, you get the idea, all of this kind of fucks up your psyche. How do you reconcile with the fact that your past sucked balls against your older years coming in right around the corner.

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Also the fact that since my past has been like this AND I am still like this, I have no idea how to solve this problem (lack of friends and experiences), since I am an "Adult" already, it is infinitely harder to satisfy this need of getting to know people and go out when you are working so much during the week. Besides, no matter what I do, I wont have that first time sex at high school, get drunk at prom, or have an awesome farewell party after college, simply all of those oportunities are fucking gone. Sorry for the rant, has anybody dealt with this?