This morning I went trough my gf'wife’s snapchat. Mind you I never do this, EVER because it shows neediness. i trusted her 100% but saw a chat on the lock screen and decided to open it. I found that she was sexting a guy, talking about that she wants his big dick rubbed all over her clit before he sticks it in her tight pussy and she wants to get her ass eaten out by him (she doesn't even give me BJs). One of the saved snaps shows he sent her his address so i decided to see if her google maps shows her history. Come to find out Her google maps shows she went to meet him at around 11pm while i was asleep but she swears to god (very religious) that she didn't had sex or kiss or anything sexual. She claims she just went to deliver some legal cannabis (legal state) because he didn't have a ride. She begged me not to leave when she initially found out that i found out (i screenshot and sent everything to my phone through text) Where i feel like I Fucked up is I decided to go meet her and talk for some closure a couple hours later and to see if the relationship is salvageable. The whole thing Turned into an argument and now she's not begging me to stay, she's lost even more respect for me. She's mad and making me feel like I'm the bad guy even though I've remained faithful and she sexted all that disgusting shit. She says the reason she went out looking for validation from other guys is because I never gave her enough attention, which i do admit. She even admitted to me that she's sexted others within the past 1-2years. I even went through her recently deleted photo album and it shows all the guys she's matched with on tinder. (the tinder app was deleted but I Didn't even know she had a tinder)

However, she says she's wiling to work it out even giving me her passwords to all social media and location. Despite the fact that she claims and swears she never did anything physical, I feel like emotionally cheating is just as bad if not worse. The things she told him make me feel nauseous, I haven't eaten anything all day. I'm sick to my stomach. I want to give her another chance but my gut is telling me no. It just hurts so bad to thing of another guy banging that bitch.

Is it worth throwing away 5years of marriage over sexual chats even if things weren’t physical ?