I'm not an incel, I am quite attractive but had lots of beta conditioning and grew up omega. I'm working on improving that. I'm not a virgin either. I'm young (21 year old). lay count is low though. only 2.
Now the thing is, i just feel pangs of jealousy and sadness when i hear about other people hooking up. I went to a pre-drinks recently with my sister's older friends (sister is 28F, friends 28F too. not attracted to them btw) and they were talking about hookups they had. I just felt pangs of jealousy, that I wanted to be that ''Chad'' who gets talked about.
I then met up with some friends from uni (not in uni anymore) and they spoke about a hookup they had.
it just seems so casual for people. i feel like there is something wrong with me sometimes. i end up feeling jealous of people who have sex, those my age and even those older than me.
why do i have such strong jealousy? i am aware and self-conscious of it.
also i don't drink alcohol so can't do club or party hookups.