I want to make a really hilarious analogy about pharmaceuticals and overdosing, but I think we've already got enough "pills" being digested.

About 1 week ago, my friend introduced me to "The Red Pill". This, [ http://www.reddit.com/r/TheRedPill/comments/287cc4/how_do_males_with_no_male_father_figure_become/ ], was the first thread I read. I think my response was appropriate and I was rather surprised that I was able to say what I did.

But, here,[ http://www.reddit.com/r/TheRedPill/comments/287nje/cant_just_have_one_damn_day/ ], I must say, I deserved to be banned and removed for what I said. Again, without thinking before I typed, I was surprised at what I said, but maintained enough clarity to understand I was wrong: I didn't read the guidelines, I bantered uncontrollably, and I didn't abide by the guidelines.

However, by exhibiting the same behaviour I was condemning, I removed all credibility from myself. Nonetheless, now that I have clarity, I'm here to speak on my thoughts, if anyone would be interested in reading.

The reasons I strongly feel ALL THESE PILLS are poisonous is because trusting each other to take the time to read and analyze all this information, which is flooding endlessly from every direction, from the minds of the masses is just too much! It's so difficult to get an accurate depiction of ANYTHING. Everything posted originates from the "O.P", or "Original Poster",a person writing from their subconscious , who will apply their perception from their experiences, and your interpretation WILL NOT be 100% accurate of what the O.P intended to be derived. Subaqueous understanding is, indeed, mysterious and ambiguous. Everything is divided, divided,divided, then divided some more, and disguised through ironic internet segregation. It's hilarious and sad at the same time. It's overwhelmingly heart-aching that conversations being held by thousands, in private and restricted sections, less you be banned and your right to express your opinion/s in said conversation/s forever be removed, contain some of the largest numbers of communities. It would almost seem akin of so many forms of segregation over history that I know I'll derail you from being interested if I mention them, which is kinda heartbreaking, but whatever.

If you're online, using the internet on a regular basis, and constantly read the same subject from the same perspective, you will never gain any footing! It's like climbing up an escalator and feeling convinced that you're so much closer to your goal WHEN YOU ARE GOING NOWHERE. It's just HILARIOUS! Having role models who represented, to me, what I want to become and who I would like to love and have love me, speaking of Teal, obviously (lol) to learn from and listen to when I was stuck in my own perspective helped me to open up to myself. I've been afraid to speak, write, listen, or even look people in the eyes when it comes to physical interaction. But, after watching and constantly digesting their videos over and over and over again, I was able to feel reborn; truly as if my old self had died and tomorrow I would be better. Do me a weird favor: Whenever anyone asks you how you're doing, say "Better", because the vibrations that will ring out in yourself and others will also ring out the truth. "Do you feel better? Do you really feel better?" is what you'll end up asking your subconscious, and, before you know it, you'll have cursed at your manager for slapping you on the ass instead of allowing them to go on with that behaviour for the 37th time in your 5 years of employment around him/her!

I ask so few things of my fellow Redditers. I truly, truly do. I've spent a lot of my life in solitude, forced to focus on myself and analyze myself in a lamenting and most painfully self-deplorable light possible. Somehow, I learned how to disillusion all of my doubt and learned to like me for me unconditionally (teehee! more rhyme). -Subscribe to and watch AskTeal's 'The Spiritual Catalyst', as well as, Ralph Smart's 'Infinite Waters' Youtube pages. Search through their videos for something that strikes a chord in you. The last link is for my favorite band, Autumn's Grey Solace, and a playlist of songs and videos they've beautiful done and performed ethereally with only the 2 of them, Erin Welton and Scott Ferrel. Androgyny has always brought me to my true self. You can't have anything without man AND woman. We are one. That's who we came from, so it's important to remember that who we will inevitably become man & woman through teachings they endowed as they angrily taught us, but, as we drift ever so slowly from our caregivers, we have to teach ourselves things: How to love ourselves, how to love others, how we want to be loved, how we do not want to be love, and the difference between them all. And, personally, we can and should learn overzealously.

Always examine where your words, and feelings attached to them, are coming from when you speak and read anything from anyone anywhere. All I'm asking you to do is watch some videos, listen to some chill music with awesome, introspectively mind-opening lyrics, maybe even suggesting toking a little to force you to chill the fuck out (if you like le ganj) and share that experience with someone else who you love, and I promise, as long as you do things from now on from a place of authenticity, your life will change and you will get so much for so little: some time, some energy, and some effort to -digest- and regurgitate what things outside of yourself have to give to things inside of yourself that should be self-nourishing ANYWAY! Our parental experiences determine what type of self-nurturing system we have for our minds. But that's just me. I can't wait to see what this gets out of people. Please, everyone, take your time in commenting. But, remember, you can always go back and edit yourself because you can be better everyday.

https://www.youtube.com/user/Kemetprince1

https://www.youtube.com/user/TheSpiritualCatalyst

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VyI1nkP_ykw&list=PLnjgpJwWc8JicHJmEcg0EBseXSJq6GHQ6

But, if you can bypass all bullshit you think for 2 hours, watch this. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=z2ghdirLe7w

Oh, and please don't bother trying to redirect your inability to interpret this piece to my approval of marijuana, nor anything else that doesn't deal directly with what I've written. Just 'cause I condone it doesn't mean I do it. There's no need to allow for distraction. :3