Edit- Okay I just realized my post is rather blah and long...and could've been summarized with a few bullet points. Lmao. Sorry it turned into a full out rant.

So /u/PowerHuffGirl posted on RPW, and wrote my reasons as to why I do not want to live as an RPW: https://www.reddit.com/r/RedPillWomen/comments/2s300i/the_red_pill_made_me_depressed_what_did_it_do_to/

However, I cannot seem to shake off the feeling that feminism is full of delusions. That I am only valuable to a guy as a baby-making machine and as a submissive/doormat. That men value me for my looks only and my intellect/knowledge/desire to learn is a turn off. That men don't see me as another human being with my own likes and dislikes, but as a potential womb for his spawn to grow in. That I need to go for men 20+ years my senior to be sure that he will stay with me, even though there is a high chance he will cheat on me in a couple years with a younger hotter woman.That my only worth as a woman is in my looks, and I should just give up becoming a doctor now.

Because being in a transactional relationship based on SMV is my ultimate root to happiness. That men are inherently sociopaths- they don't care about equality for all people or women's rights unless women give them sex. That my husband and I will never love or care about each other. That everything wrong in a relationship is always my fault no matter what, and he is never at fault.