Summary- I have been a white knight pretty much my whole life due to my blue pill upbringing. A girl I had a fling with recently left me when she couldn't take anymore of my betaness, which sparked the fuse that lead me to the rabbit hole of TRP.
First of all, I want to say how glad I am to have found TRP and this treasure bank of knowledge. It's pretty random how I just happened to trip on it one day, but that story will come later.
I have "white knight" in the title, yes and because that's what I would have called myself all these years. Since I was a boy, I always had a dedication to "trying to be the bigger man" and hated douchebags that left girls crying. Whenever one of my friends (girls) would be dumped or mistreated, they would run to me and spill all their problems to me. My sexual endeavors with girls I actually wanted to hook up with were rocky. I was (still am) a shy guy and approaching girls was a problem. Luckily for me, I'm quite decent looking so that made girls walk up and talk to me, when I couldn't. All of them left as easy as they walked into my life. During that time, I thought I was doing the right thing. I thought to myself, "you're doing the right thing don't worry, the right one will like you for who you are". I thought of myself being like the "Captain America" of women. Leading a just and rightful life and that I would never be disrespectful to a woman. But was I happy? HELL NO. All my buddies were getting laid left right and centre, while I served as an emotional tampon to the girls that would cry to me and go and screw that guy that made them cry the very next day. Every day I would walk around, seeing and hearing red pill manifestations in the world of women and I was blind and deaf to it all because the white knight in me was deeply rooted into Blue pill mentality. But something was sparking up in my head already. Ironically, it was just like Morpehus says about the "splinter in your mind" stuff. That I've always felt like something was wrong, so I began to doubt my approach to women...
April 2015. The catalyst to it all. The events between November 2014-April 2015 have changed my life for the better. As much as I could say I hate that girl I was involved with, I have to thank her for allowing me to find and swallow the red pill. However a month ago, I was still the blue pill loser that I decided to post my story in the "dating" section of reddit. I'm not entirely sure what I was hoping for but basically, I had a workplace fling with a HB9, who I developed feelings for and asked her for a relationship. She said no and left my beta ass. The days after this woman were harsh. Like I said in my story, I picked up some bad habits, found new hobbies to take my mind off of her but the heartbreak was real. Everytime, I would see this girl at the mall, it would kill me inside that I lost her and mad that she may or may not be with another man. What did I do wrong? So one night during my anger phase, I was listening to "Eminem-Superman" on youtube cause that is just what made me feel better at the moment. While scanning the comments, I noticed someone referred to the video as MGTOW. I had never heard this abbreviation before, so I googled it. From reading about MGTOW, I found TRP on Reddit and actually rejoiced. I started reading up sidebar content for hours and could not stop... This was the kind of information I was missing all these years. As I continue reading and learning from field reports, psychological theories and different posts, I just want to prepare myself to adapt these teachings to the real world. For the first time in my life, I just want to go up to women and just talk because I am beginning to stop caring about what other people think about me. So now I am in monk mode. Reading, lifting and meditating on how I could further improve myself. I will tell you all this; self-improvement has never been so rewarding. I can now see how small victories in life can have such a positive impact on one's happiness and well-being. Thanks all for reading my first post on here and hope there's room for one more brother that is striving for enlightenment.
Lessons learned- 1. Nice guys really do finish last. Just ask me. 2. The red pill will not only improve your world with women, but with every other life aspect. 3. I know this is just the beginning and I have much to learn.
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