Hi guys, After years struggling with this, I'm finally asking this question because, although it's not often heard in red pill circles, I believe there may be others suffering the same problem. I grew up being blue pill and bought into the being the perfect nice guy mainstream narrative, just like pretty much everyone. The quirk though, is that in from my teens I did enjoy being submissive with women. I thought, ... well if feminine women like masculine men, masculine women must like feminine man. Not only did I not push back agains this trait, but I embraced it, and started developing sexual fetishes regarding female domination and so on. Fast forward to 2008, I found out about Red Pill and self-development, and more recently about cultural marxism, genetics, evolution, nofap. I have been reading lots of theory, practising self-knowledge and so on, and I would say I have