Background- USMC vet im in great shape and generally looked at by females as attractive. (42inch chest 30inch waist Im addicted to lifting) Im also extremely insecure about everything my mind doesnt stop and after turning to TRP i realized i have a female mind i see the worst in everything and create drama. I was diagnosed with PTSD but im not sure if thats the reason for my emotional issues i was also molested as a child by men. Im only sharing this shit to get off my chest and i genuinely want to help you fuckers. I dont have a problem attracting women i have a problem keeping them around or finding them which leads me to my point. I decided to go out tonight after work and just approach women because I have no game (sink or swim i told myself). went to two different bars one had no females the other was just slightly better I literally just left, everything clicked for me tonight and i want to share and hopefully motivate some of you fucks to get out there. Ok so i went to an all guys military school in another state and joined the USMC shortly after graduation, all my friends live all over the place. I only have a very small circle of friends and most are BP married and in LTR. I had alot of anxiety going out alone wondering what everyone would think about me but i forced myself to anyways. At bar number 2 will say 80/20 guy girl. I orderd a beer and figured my life sucks ill be a true force loneliness guy for the rest of my life. As i sat there with no phone just my beer and smile i decieded to watch people not giving a fuck if i was creepy after a few minutes the anxiety went away and i realized nobody cared. Something better happened i realized how fake the entire charade was i saw guys who wouldnt dare look me in the eyes with girls who i always thought were out of my league. I saw morons dress like idiots because they wanted attention. All these fake faggots ive been jealous of are seeking validation just like i was. I saw two girls with a giant group of guys playing pool one was HB5 the other HB4 and neither seemed to be getting too much attention i said fuck it im approaching HB5. I walked up to her put my hand on her back and said "whats wrong with you" she gave me a funny look and said "what" i said "your surrounded by all these guys and no one is touching you" HB4 walks up "she is married" (points to some random guy) me "thats too bad at least you know your still attractive" next thing you know both these girls are engaging me and HB4 seems to want me to hang around but i wasnt interested in her so i left. I cant tell you guys what tonight did for me i realized I dont give a shit about anyone's opinion of me and i had fun watching all these fucks do there monkey dance i felt like i owned the place. Life is one giant game and you cant win if you dont play. i didn't get laid but i realized i can approach any woman i want and not be worried about what someone will think. Solo game it the fuck up your a lot cooler than you think you are dont sit here and read this shit with out getting out there and learning about women first hand. I think going out solo helped put the alpha mindset in action and I really showed me the power of not caring.