I've been monk mode since my last disaster of a relationship roughly nine years ago, before I even knew what MGTOW was. Once I found MGTOW and it reaffirmed all the conclusions I had come to on my own, monk mode turned into easy mode. Hadn't had a problem and was finally feeling like I had my biology beat--to where it wouldn't mess with my thoughts. Enter work thot. She's 19-20, a little more than 15 years younger than me. She's my physical type in every way, like the plantation did their homework on me before sending this chick in. She's been working on me for 6 months during work despite living with her boyfriend (or not boyfriend, Idk - they live together and fuck). I notice myself wondering if she's working that day and other "crush"-like shit lately despite knowing exactly what kinda thot she is.

The struggle is real brothers. Biology is powerful and fucks with your mind. Your mind likes the way it feels to get swept up in the mating cyclone--it's why it makes you feel so good... It's bullshit! Fuck my biology and work thot wearing me down... making dumb ideas like getting with her sound more and more attractive in my head. It's weird the way your biology completely fucks your mind over like that because of the drive to reproduce.