My names Crailberry, and I'm a recovering bluepiller.

The red pill. The savior of men. What a beautiful thing we have access to; to grow and develop as a person.

Throughout my life, I've been walked over and stomped on, trampled on, by women. Mind you, I've always pulled attractive women and could get a girlfriend. But once that honeymoon phase ended, I was a lost cause. It would always lead to me being cheated on. I have been called a little bitch. I have been pushed and pulled by the opposite sex. I have cried. I have sat in my room for months after going through a breakup, only to watch movies and wallow in my own misery. I would blame women for my problems. I would tell myself that I was just getting unlucky, and one day I would find a woman deserving of my goodnatured-ness, kindhearted-ness, and trustworthiness.

HURL.

Am I greatful for these experiences? Absolutely. One cannot appreciate the other side, without having experienced both sides. I would not be who I am today without these shitty times.

I'm going to give you a firsthand look into a relationship I had with a female a few years ago. I approached this female at her work one day, and gave her my number. Told her to text me. She did just that a couple days later. A couple weeks later I found out she was pregnant. I continued to date her. I fell "in love" with her. We continued to date for a year after her baby was born. I would give this girl footrubs, backrubs, by her food, etc. The following screenshots are after I found out she was fucking one of her coworkers. Now, let me warn you. These are absolutely cringeworthy. And may even make some of you puke something fierce. You've been warned.

[img]http://i.imgur.com/twrSgzg.jpg[/img]

[img]http://i.imgur.com/zC8gM7K.jpg[/img]

Yeah. I hear you. Holy fuck is right. I lost every ounce of manhood I may have had. I was bending over as this female fucked me in the ass with her strapon (not literally, had to clarify that). I look back now and I almost want to cry tears of joy. What if I had gotten this girl pregnant? What if I had been stupid enough to actually adopt her kid?

One more scenario for you.

I was dating a woman that we'll call Harper. Harper was hot. Wore black secretary-style glasses. Double D tits. Big ass. Gorgeous face. I actually really liked her. But I did whatever the fuck I wanted. I didn't always call her. Whenever traumatic shit happened to her I didn't drop what I was doing and rush to her aid. I didn't buy her shit. I made it known that school was more important than her. I had her wrapped around my finger and I didn't even know it. I had no idea I had this power over her. She ended up confessing her love to me. Long story short I disappeared on her because I just didn't want to be in a relationship at the time.

2 months later I change my mind. I decide that I really like this woman. I feel bad for disappearing on her, and put myself under the illusion that I have a LOT of making up to do because what I did to her was fucked up and I'm treading on thin ice. I have to try my hardest to win her back. Yeah.

I spent the next 2 months trying to impress her, trying to show her that I meant business and that I really liked her and wanted her. At one point I drove a half hour to her place at 6am to deliver flowers and put them on her doorstep. She had never received flowers before.

A month later she moves to another state with her all of a sudden new marine boyfriend.

Here's a picture of me back when I was a bluepiller, before I lifted. [img]http://i.imgur.com/XUYHnuv.jpg[/img]

How am I doing now?

[img]http://i.imgur.com/hEv8ghY.jpg[/img]

[img]http://i.imgur.com/w9Tm6Tu.jpg[/img]

Much better.

Here's what I learned/my advice. Some of these have been repeated time and time again, but oh well. Here you go again.

  • UTILIZE REDDIT! I don't think some of you realize just how powerful reddit is. You have access to all these experiences from people who have been through it all. Whether it has to do with relationships, money, careers, you name it, it's on here. Subscribe to financial subs and get your money right. Engineering if you want to be an engineer. ALWAYS be constantly improving yourself. I fucking WISH I had known what reddit was at 18 years old (I'm 27). Learn from your elders that have been through it already.

  • LIFT! Pull your head out of your ass and get to the gym. Yeah, the gym used to scare me too. I used to think it was full of a bunch of tools. And well, it is. But put your fucking headphones in, put on some gangster ass rap, and get big. Eat healthy. Going to the gym is not a necessity for getting women, but it sure as fuck helps. A few weeks ago I caught a woman eyeing me, look directly at my crotch, and then back to my eyes. Think she would have eyefucked me if I didn't look in shape? Probably not. Plus it's just good for you in general. Do it for yourself, ultimately.

  • OBTAIN A WORTHY CAREER! Get a degree. Get a certification. Work towards SOMETHING! This shows a woman you have dedication. That you're alpha. No woman worth fucking wants to fuck a pizza delivery driver (no offense). I can't tell you how many times I've seen a woman's eyes light up after telling her I have a degree.

  • READ THE RED PILL! You don't have to agree with everthing on here, I certainly don't. But take what you can and apply it your life. Get that shit into your mindframe SOLID, and it will show itself in your everyday life.

  • LEARN TO APPRECIATE THE NATURAL, SLOW BUT STEADY PROGRESSION! This is important. I have really come to realize that anything worth achieving in life does not happen overnight. I have been lifting for 2 years now, and it is such an amazing feeling to know that I started from ground zero, dedicated myself to it, and now reaping the results of that hardwork. Before I obtained my degree, I didn't know how a fucking AA battery worked. Now I'm programming machines and solving electrical problems for a company that pays me pretty damn good money for being right out of school. This is all a journey, and you have to learn to love it and appreciate it. All it takes is a little dedication and patience.

Anyways, good luck recovering blue pillers. Becoming alpha isn't easy. But if it was easy, it wouldn't be very alpha.