LTR of a whopping 2 months

This weekend she had seemed distant and I couldn’t put my finger on why, and then on Monday she came over to my house crying about me not trying hard enough to hang out with her friends after I agreed to an activity with them, but not quickly enough and with enough enthusiasm! We worked it out and fucked and then she told me she was actually even considering breaking up with me over it. This didn’t make much sense to me and had me scratching my head. She claimed it was a big deal that she’s been bottling up... but my gut said bullshit.

She’s a nurse and so is her best friend.

THEN she brought up on Tuesday that her friend is doing the travel nurse thing and she’s considering it, and then I of course confirmed I would consider myself single if she went to another state to work for a month, but we could still stay in touch.

That’s when it all made sense to me: She was looking for an excuse to break up so she could travel for work without feeling like she left me behind for it. If she could convince herself I was such an asshole with her friends (Im really not), then it would make her decision to follow her friend to another state for a month or two easy. I don’t really need to confirm this whole thought process with her. It’s the only explanation that makes sudden distant behavior and a threatened break up over petty shit make sense. (She could be cheating or have found someone else she was branch swinging too but that doesn’t add up with her behavior either IMO.)

Well now she has decided she doesn’t want to do the travel nurse thing and wants to stay here and stay together.

First off, I fucking hate that it feels like the relationship is only continuing on her terms.

Second off, I don’t really like the idea of being with someone who would break up with me for either her stated reason or the reason I actually suspected. I’ve been on my a-game in this relationship and if what she has seen ain’t enough for her to stay, then why the fuck would I keep trying? However, I like her a lot and the relationship was awesome before this, so I don’t want to overreact.

Thoughts?