No one is probably going to reply. But we are both in college, and in the same medicine program so we see each other like everyday and we study and do everything together, we are three in our close group, myself and him and another girl. I’ve always thought my male friend was gay, even though I thought he was attractive and super smart, I just assumed he was gay so I never saw a future of us together. My other female friend sleeps over at his place and they just hang out in his dorm room and stuff like that, but I’ve always been eery about being alone with a guy in his room, anytime he would invite me to come study in his room I would suggest somewhere else, and when he asked why I normally made an excuse. But today my other friend was joining us so I was like whatever, and we were in his room and we did sexually oral stuff, in his room while she was sleeping and then in his car. I don’t regret what we did and I like it, I just feel like our friendship is ruined, and I just need advice on how to mend this and set boundaries, how to listen to my brain and not my stuff.