This is a response I gave to someone in another thread. To preface, although Ive spent the past 3 years successfully plating women and generally living a red pill lifestyle - every couple blue moons I'll meet a woman who I can see myself having a future with, and unfortunately I still want that with someone. Last month I met one who absolutely blew me away and I made a thread about how I was constantly struggling with blue pill behaviors with her because I cared too much, Well, I had reclaimed frame several days ago and had been congratulated for it. Everything was going great until.....

​

>I fucked up royally. So bad, in fact, that I'm having a mild identity crisis here. I am actually shocked at and scared of my behavior last night. So wed been texting all day like teenage girls, and at one point she just stopped responding. Clear shit test, wanted to see if I really had my frame back. Couldn't see it. Im telling you the oneitis thing is real. Its like I had such bad experiences with women when I was younger and when I was older saw what hoes they can be.....so if I meet the one every two years woman I could see a future with - I smother her with paranoia and push her away.

Anyway, I ignored it for about 4-5 hours but then had dinner with my parents which included several glasses of wine. After the wine I said fuck it, I'll just tease her. I told her I was down regulating her to FWB status (we always joke about this). So she's joking back with me first "finally thank god" and then I maybe push a bit too far. I say something along the lines of yeah call me if you ever wanna fuck. She goes "wait are you serious?" and I say yep. I didnt realize the effect this would have, she basically had a meltdown and said she knew I was just a whore this whole time and blah blah and before I could answer her she had blocked me.

Well, heres where frame just absolutely crumbles. I hit her on snap, telling her I was just kidding. She says no I'm tired of you always being so jealous and saying u wanna drop me every 5 hours (exaggeration but def some truth to it previously). I had failed her shit test big time, and she could sense that I wasn't just teasing but was actually butthurt. Then I had another glass of wine and told her stop Im going to get you a present. I am ashamed to say, I bought this bitch flowers and wrote a little note in it apologizing for my jealousy issues and explaining why and that Im still totally into her. I snap her and say are you home she says her roommate will call the cops if I show up. I drop the flowers at the door and ask if she got them. Then she proceeds to block me on snap, and facebook, as as did her friends!!

I fucked up so unbelievably hard here, I dont know what is wrong with me. I immediately called an old plate and told her I was coming over. On the way down, I used an app to text the girl and call her horrible things, a cunt, how could you do this, you played games the whole time, ect. I met my plate and fucked her literally all night and talked about this shit haven't slept more than an hour. I seriously need some help here, I dont know what to do, I dont know why I want this girl so much, I dont know what is wrong with me that I would act like that when I KNOW what it will result in.

Edit: I do know why I want this girl so much. I dont know why I could possibly allow myself to royally screw it up so badly. I still want to find a way to apologize, and I'm wondering what she's thinking. Oh, the horror.......

​

Edit: The questions I am asking are - what can I possibly do here moving forward

A. To possibly salvage the situation if at all possible

B. To temper these unbelievable beta qualities in me that pop up now and again

C. To become more stoic