It literally happened last night. I met this guy at a party and we talked for a while. No immediate spark or anything but yeah I was a little bit horny and needed some cuddle, so I followed him to his place.

We just messed around for long. I was pretty drunk, so at that time it was fun and I felt alright.

But today when morning came, I suddenly started feeling fucking terrible. I didn’t have a good sleep as it was random dude’s house, also felt like what the fuck am I doing here? Everything just didn’t feel right.

As he was obviously looking for a hookup, it wasn’t his fault or anything... but I just realized that shit... I am sick of having all this casual one off fun which I have been doing after breakups.

Maybe... maybe that casual fun phase has passed.

I just need someone steady and that I can feel safe with. Not this damn one off thing. It’s all meaningless now. But again... where the hell would I find a decent guy who I can have a relationship with. Damn. I’m just feeling frustrated as shit.

Anyways... I love yall on this sub. This is really my savior.

Rant done.