I stayed for three years. Finding this subreddit was a god-send. I slowly started to see that he was hurting me, even if he wasn't doing so physically all the time. He was lying, manipulating, gaslighting, and blame-shifting constantly. It was always my fault that he went back to porn, it was MY fault he couldn't stay hard enough for sex, MY fault he came too quick for me to even enjoy it, MY fault he rejected me for sex for three years straight. I'm done having it be my fault that he is sexually damaged and will never be able to fulfill a woman. He has porn, why does he need to put any effort into a relationship?

I found 30+ porn magazines in the trunk of the car after months of being gasilt and told I was crazy and he was clean... Had an accountability app on his phone, on the wifi router, everything.... Despite having sex maybe 6 times in 6 months. Despite the dreams and constant anxiety and knowing feeling in my stomach. Despite the hairs that stood up on the back of my neck everytime he went to the bathroom or disappeared after a fight. I was crazy, though, right? That's when it all fell apart for me. I could no longer deny that he was blatantly lying and abusing me to continue using porn.... PORN. Men are PATHETIC. Porn rules their entire lives. They'll gladly throw away a relationship with a high value woman who has a career path started, talent, and is physically attractive just to look at a new pair of tits and touch their peepees. It's the most pathetic thing I've EVER dealt with. I've decided no more dating for me, ever. Men are a scourge on the Earth and even the High Value ones aren't worth the suspicion I'll feel towards men for the rest of my life. I'm a cat lady now and I'm okay with that, because at least my cats don't lie, jerk off to my friends, and tell me I'm a crazy, evil bitch when I catch them red-handed. Not to mention the times he choked me during sex without my consent, choked me during altercations until I had marks around my neck, and the fact that he could only get it up for me if he fantasized about raping teenagers. This is 99.8% of the dating pool of men.... They're pathetic and worthless and I'm so focusing on myself from now on. For the first time in my life, I broke up with someone, made him move out of MY house, and am not back on dating sites or talking to ANY men. I don't want anything to do with men ever again. Men are idiots and they're evil. Plain and simple. They complain that women hate them, well here's your fucking sign. This sub is a gold mine of information regarding men and their shitty tactics and I'm gonna say to pass all this info on to my daughter. Thank you for this sub. Ya'll just saved my life.

It still hurts a lot and I hate how much I miss him, but he already admitted he's back to masturbating (omitting the porn, but I don't believe that for a second, since he threw away a woman he supposedly loves over porn) already. His car got repossessed the second he pulled into his mom's driveway and his mom has his bedroom full of shit, so he has to sleep on an air mattress in the living room. Damn.... Karma's a bitch, ain't it? Guess he should've prioritized what we had over his precious penis.

He seems to have it in his head that HE broke up with ME... Which I think is hilarious. He says he "Can't do this anymore" because when I found those magazines, I threw them square at his head and told him to take them and GTFO. He says "You're being abusive!". IDGAF. This is my reaction to three years of crazy-making abuse on YOUR end, motherfucker, now get out and I'll go right back to normal. Funny how I don't seem to have these ridiculous emotional outbursts with ANYONE else in my life other than when I find more disgusting porn, porn of my FRIENDS, porn of his ex girlfriends saved, then the "Teen Dream Barely Legal" magazines. Yeah, I lots my fucking cool, but he's alive and he's perfectly fine an safe and got away from me and my controlling boundaries of NO MORE FUCKING PORN. He's clearly the winner here. No more porn sick, limp dicks, EVER. I won't even take a chance -- I fully believe all men are lying about not looking at porn and I refuse to sacrifice even a moment of my time or life on the off chance one man out of all of them isn't a shitty cheating coomer. They all are. Beware ladies. This guy was the knight in shining armor who did everything right for a long time, other than the sex. I had no idea until 1.5 years in and then it was too late.

I hate you, T. Rot in Hell.