Redpill shit is a real slipepry slope that you have to be careful with, some of their stuff is useful but certainly not all of it, and for fucks sakes NEVER delve into the incel and looksmax forums EVER

I used to think im good looking and if I started trying I could get a good looking enough girlfriend have a connection with then just be set, but overplanning like I always do i found my way to redpill and blackpill shit and holy christ I have been swept under and pulled into this crazy neurotic fight or flight lifestyle where I became obsessed with game then now I am constantly concerned about my looks(already kind of was before, just never this autistically) and before i knew it the focus of my life is to be the most sexually attractive man so all the girsl want me, when I wasnt too concerned about that before, I had other desires in life.

I went from a virgin just tryna get a girlfriend to now a virgin trying to be a rich chad that slays. I am fucking obsessed about looks now mainly because the fucking autistic incels that have convinced me that my facial flaws will mean I WILL NEVER be sexually attractive enough because looks are all that matter and the halo effect rules all. (I legit saw this post where these girls were commenting about a background character was so hot in a video and these incels were baffled because he had upper eyelid exposure, one of them legit said “Watch what they do not what they say, theyd never touch thus guy un reallife, they throw themselves only at 6’5” giga chad) LMAO

My whole wellbeing and meaning of life is dedicated to being a slave to my ego(most redpillers). And thats the thing, these guys insist thats its all about truth and must self improve for women or else youre lying to yourself and taking the pussy blue pill way out.

Btw I know plenty of blue pill guys who have racked up some numbers mainly in the form of girlfriends but have been just ok. Sure they went through some bad breakups but they accepted and moved on, and it happened again, but theyre ok, gaurentee theyre not any more miserable in life than these plate spinners.

The only thing that im really convinced of is if i dont at least try to live the slayer/party lifestyle for a bit I will deeply regret it when im older, I suspected this but redpillers really reinforced this one, even though everyone lives with regrets. whats one potential thing I might regret not doing that I never really wanted in the first place gonna change?

I understand that most of this is probably my fault, Ive taken it waaaayyyy too far. there are definitely some useful truths to it though. such as me being unkept and dirty wasnt helping with my success with women, but found out they wont love for who you are if youre an insecure looksmaxxing wreck who only has knowledge of dick pumps, mewing, sticking fucking needles in your head for hairloss, lifting, and pick up tactics, like how the fuck do some of these guys even talk to girls about shit other than autistic shit like this? Oh let me guess it’s because their looks and they could say whatever they want, they believe you can be autistic and still get all pussy cuz youre hot enough.

Most of this is more directed at the incels, theyre the worst. But I feel like many redpillers are really blackpillers anyways, its a real slippery slope.

Question: how the hell do I keep all this shit off my mind without feeling guilty about “denying the truth” and live my fucking life