Hey guys, been wondering how one can get out of the instant gratification loop, i've noticed that I have close to no discipline when i'm constantly fapping everyday and playing video games as well as doing weed.

I've tried getting out of fapping constantly and porn and getting it under control is extremely hard (no pun intended), when I don't fap everyday and stop watching porn I go to the gym regularly and train as hard as I can and I really enjoy it (especially after i'm done with it because I feel kinda as if I had cum due to the exhaustion I think) More so, I let go of videogames usually after I play about an hour or so. Eating right is also easier because I'm somewhat driven and want to succeed harder. Getting out of weed is hard, I really want to sometimes but it's manageable and it goes away after some time.

But porn is a whole different beast and the urge never goes away from my brain.

At first I didn't understand where those benefits came from, but now I do : My life is shit, just like the majority of average males in the world but with a cocktail of dopamine that is strong enough I can manage and actually find it to be "ok" and livable.

Now this is great right, found a cure for my shitty life, the problem is that it comes with the price of having to bear that every minute of everyday until I get rewarded by meaningfull changes in my life that will make it really good and not just a lie.

Currently I'm going to the gym 3x/week and lifting, eating right for my goals and stopped weed, more importantly I feel alive, more than ever because of the pain of the withdrawal (Don't really know if I can call it that, but for me it feels really like withdrawal from porn).

So yeah I get more shit done than ever, if i stay on track I'll get ripped and have plenty of pussy around in some time that's great, but the question is : How do you make sure you don't lose steam ? That you don't fall on the way ?

I feel a lot better than ever and I feel amazingly alive when i'm out, but when I'm home in my room it's the complete opposite, I get a strange feeling in my head kinda as if it was gently pressed from the inside getting stronger and stronger as the urge grows, I get lazy, sitting on my bed listening to music doing nothing else trying to control myself and as soon as I get up the urge to fap is striking me extremely hard making me kinda depressed.

I don't really know what I expect from asking that here, all I know is that TRP always provided me with great advices and insights all I know right know is that i'm really unstable, my feelings and mood are going from euphoria to feeling like utter shit and it can change in the blink of an eye.

So yeah if anyone has ever experienced that, I'd like some advices, even if it's as blunt as someone insulting me and telling to man the fuck up. I'm really afraid because I don't want to go back now but I've still got so much miles to walk and i'm already crawling on my knees.

Thanks for taking your precious time to read.

Tl;dr : Pain is the best motivator around, as long as you can handle it, how did you ?