I have a hard time understanding banter and flirting. I think this is because I have really low intelligence. When people talk about it they communicate in English but I feel like I am reading a foreign language. My brain can't seem to comprehend these concepts no matter how much effort I put into it.

For me monk mode is easier because it is simpler for me to live alone without having to deal with a lot of complex thoughts about relationships. There is a hidden language in relationships that requires a certain intelligence and I realized I don't have it.

Even though I have low intelligence I still try to make the best out of it. I still think you can understand a lot about the world even if you can't participate in it because your brain is too slow and can't come up with comebacks or flirty lines. It's better to understand yourself and make the best out of what you have instead of pining for a life with unrealistic expectations.