Hi all!

First off this is my first time posting, so please be nice to me as I don't usually post about my life, nor do I like people knowing my personal stuff but here we go.

I've decided going MGTOW but I think I've been MGTOW for a number of years now (I've been single for 8/9 years now) and didn't even realize it, but here is a little back story on why I decided to go this way. I should also mention I'm 27 and only recently found out about MGTOW

Let me make one thing very very very clear, I don't want pity, sympathy, all I want is for guys to know that this stuff happens, even to us "nice" guys.

First girlfriend: we were together for almost 8 months, she decided that she didn't want me anymore. Here is were I got really fucked up, she said straight to my face that she preferred my best friend at the time (he was good shit, never did anything, but oh she tried) and that she didn't know why she wanted him. She left me via a phone call, flash forward about 6 months later I'm at home, get this call, turns out she went to the cops with her parents and said I had sexually assaulted her. My parents thought she was fucked before, but after hearing that they really knew she was fucked, hell even some of her friends thought she had issues, and if that wasn't enough while all of this was going on she went on Facebook and started telling people I knew that I had raped her etc...

That was my taste of a relationship, it also gave me a drinking problem, mental health issues, trust issues and just generally speaking, made me very very uncomfortable being around women.

Second girl friend: we are still somewhat friends, she was actually a really really good girl, who was genuinely concerned for me. I dated her shortly after being dumped by girl #1 , and my head was just never in it.

Third girlfriend: Started dating just before Christmas 2010, thought I had found a decent chick til New Years Eve, buddy of mine who was dating her best friend phones me up crying, telling me he really fucked up. he ended up telling me he cheated on his girl with the chick I had just started dating. Remember me mentioning the trust issues? Yeah this REALLY fucked me up.

Fourth girlfriend(last one): This was me being a total fucking idiot but I settled for a girl who I think wanted to hurt someone. She came from a divorced mother ( the mom cheated on her husband, should have been my first red flag) so I think she (my ex) wanted to test how much she could hurt a man. We dated for just over a year and a half, and within 1.5 months in, I finished work, headed for her apartment, found her laptop open and she was messaging another guy, saying she wished she was with him, and that I never said I love you, and if I did say it that I didn't mean it. This all completely destroyed me.

I have cut back on drinking, but it came close to killing me, I've tried killing myself 13 times, the last time was 3 summers ago, I've been to 12 councilors/therapists, been on anti depressants (which for me never worked) so guys, please focus on yourself. I don't wish any of these things on anybody, even my worst enemy. I wish that women would seriously wake up and look at what damage they have caused, and this may sound silly or sad but I'm honestly truly terrified of women.

But it ain't all bad, because of my dad I got into motorcycles, I've started going to the gym, I have a good job, I keep to myself and I try to look out for myself more now. Anyways boys, I just wanted to thank you all for reading this and stay strong guys.

Cheers!