After 15 years together, I decided to leave. I just wasn't happy guys, and there is alot more but I'm literally just so tired of talking about it. Maybe as time goes on, I'll fill u all in but my point of my post is that I slept alone in my own apartment for thr first time in 18 years and it was calming. I had my dog and stayed on the phone trying to process all of this with close friends. For all the men who are afraid to take that first step out the door, know that I didn't die and every thing was ok. My Kids survived without me and I didn't randomly combust. If you aren't happy, then find the will power to walk to the car and sign a lease somewhere and force urself to do it. Find the strength because your happiness is more important then ANYONE ELSES