Every time I watch a movie, and I like it, I think something along the lines of "I'd really like to watch that movie again with a girl." That sounds retarded but nearly every fucking time it goes through my head.

One time I hit a big milestone in the gym, and almost immediately afterwards, before I had time to even realize I lifted that much weight, I thought, "if I had a girl she would be proud of me right now."

And today, for example, I was playing chess with a buddy and a girl mentions "I don't even know how to play chess." I said something semiflirty that gave her a chance to learn, and shortly after this weird fantasy of me teaching her chess pops up in my head.

All of these incidents have a common thread: for some reason, I crave attention from women. Badly. I want them all to think I'm strong, smart, and have good taste. But I know I shouldn't really care.

Thoughts?