We agreed to separate in September 2024. Lived together still with two kids for a year for financial reasons. It was excruciating. I had to hold it together because I was the primary breadwinner (and cook, cleaner, shopper, childcare guy...). She finally got a job, and I was able to move out at the beginning of October 2025.

It's been rough. Overwhelming with the kids, silent and sad without them. I am in weekly therapy, daily journaling. Tried dating again recently and crashed and burned hard twice in a month. I am so angry and sad. My chest hurts. I want to cry. I know the tears are there but I cannot get them to come out. How do I let myself? I know it would be good.