My ex (not married) has our child. We are in trial for the custody. I feel lonely, but this is not the issue. The issue is that I am thinking about her situation: she is in another (poorer) country, with our son (actually I am the biological father, she is practically the surrogate mother given that the eggs were from a donor) and is not working. I offered her the possibility to discuss the issues in order for me to help her find work, but she said she doesn't have time (she stays at home with our son, and she wants to be like that another 1-2 years) and she hates my guts. Everytime we were speaking, she was accusing me of all the bad things happened (even though she told me to leave her parents' house, where she is living now). So she actually refused all my proposals. When we were together, since his birth I have paid for everything since she had to move to another country and resigned from her workplace. Now I am sending a small amount of money monthly for our son, but since beginning of October I cannot even see him online. I am thinking about not sending money anymore, maybe she will try to contact me and to talk. Really struggling, mostly because I want to help her but she doesn't want me except my money monthly.