My STBX made a half-assed attempt at counseling, didn't get what she wanted, ran to a lawyer to file some emergency orders. There's no DV, child abuse, drugs, I moved out months ago with the kids to an apartment a ways off and now she's angry about being too far from them even tho she was fine with us going at the time. Lying. She has always had a perspective that justifies what she wants to do and why she treated me like dogshit. Lying is a strong word, but she's going to bend reality to make this order, even though I have a chain of texts to back my story and I've always said I want to work our problems out with a counselor, but she has a mohter's love and tears. Lawyer thinks status quo is established well enough for me, but who knows? She's going to play it like I took her babies and won't give them back and who knows what else. I think she's just lashing out, trying to inflict some pain, make me look bad, and drain me financially. She makes the money and already took it, so I'm struggling but getting by borrowing money from family. Basic fact, I hate lawyers, and I can see mine licking his chops knowing that he's getting a decade of savings and equity from this one.

Now I'm sitting here thinking, do I send the text that says this is all just stupid? We need to take our fingers off the button and call the mediator right now, get this shit worked out like adults, save ourselves financially from destroying our savings in divorce court. Yes, we have a good little bit put away, but if day 1 of divorce is fighting a baseless EO, we're walking a path paved with glass. Just for one time, pick up the phone and call the mediator, tell her your side, we have 2 days to hammer something out, give it a try, we stand to save thousands in just this first round. Maybe I should just ping the mediator and ask her to ask STBS how things are going and if she can still help, like out of the blue like? Guessing STBX alread talked to mediator and didn't like what she heard so found a lawyer that told her what she wanted to hear.

Yeah, I nkow I'm living in a fantasy land. Knock me down or tell me what you think the chances are that I can reach a rational nerve cell.