Missing someone so dearly that it can reduce a man to his knees with tears knowing I can’t reach out, because she told me to leave her alone. Under pressure to go back to work. Facing a detox of Benzos I’ve been masking the pain with.

I need to be strong but I’m weak. I feel anxious when I think about our own mortality and I’m scared I’m running out to days to see her face, to be in her life.

It’s been 6 months and I just want it to be over