S2BXW and I were together for almost 10 years, we separated a month ago.

I was treated more or less like a shadow for a month prior to the separation.

We came to a cross road where I was going to tell her I wanted to end the relationship if things didn’t change, and she met me there with already wanting to end things.

Immediately I used the energy, anger, sadness to turn things around for myself. A lot of exercise, studying content online and coming to terms with mine and her part of the relationship ending, learning about myself and gaining my identity/independence back.

3-weeks in and I felt like the feeling of depression finally went away.

But just the other morning I woke up sobbing, thinking about her.

Why is this process just such a damn rollercoaster? Was I a fool in thinking I could get over this in a month?

Anyways, thanks to you all on r/Divorce_men for the useful information and support over this last month.