My ex wife was my first, and she had multiple affairs and just treated me like shit. It’s been 2 years since the separation (she found someone to hook up with), and I feel so emasculated. I have been on some dates since and slept around with one or two women, but I have such horrible anxiety and doubt that I ruin any kind of relationship that starts to develop. I have kids 50/50 also. I don’t want pity I just feel so frustrated. I guess I feel frustrated with myself, Im 30 and the only real relationship and woman I had just damaged me so badly.. Im tired of feeling like I need to keep working on myself I just want to fucking feel loved by someone.