My 5 year old daughter never wants to go on visitation with my stbxw. She has to due to a court order. My daughter witnessed DV against me and her mother getting arrested for it. My daughter has told me she doesn't feel safe with her mom. To be fair, her mother is absolutely crazy and narcissistic.

When I last dropped her off, the sad resentful look she gave me before I left is burned into my memory. I'm heartbroken for her. My soul is crushed. I feel guilty. I've been crying thinking about how much I love my daughter and how unfair this all is.